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Wednesday, September 19, 2012
It's been a long, long time.
Wow, I almost forgot about this. Well, until I needed somewhere to post my worst week ever rant.
So, here it goes...
First, I am, and hopefully still will be pregnant. This is not an upsetting fact for me, as I've always wanted kids. My fiancee and I found out we were pregnant around August 5. Again, it was exciting news. By my last rag cycle ( I know, TMI! sorry) which was on July 2nd, I should have been about 11 weeks this week. Being that was when I actually got pregnant. Now, I've had my first prenatal check up and everything seemed to be fine. I had my first ultrasound yesterday, which was supposed to be a dating ultrasound. I drank so much water that it hurt to hold it in! I actually cried, it sucked. Anyways, after 20 minutes of the ultrasound tech pushing on my super full bladder he quietly left the room without saying a word to me. I was worried something was wrong right then and there. He came back in and asked me to empty my bladder so they could do a trans vaginal ultrasound. They looked and looked and still said nothing to me. When I asked them if they saw anything, the only thing they said was " we just take the pictures". That made me mad. I asked when I could talk to someone and they told me I had to call later that day to see what the results were. Okay, first of all, if you're an ultrasound tech, and you've done millions of pregnant ladies you WILL know when something doesn't seem right. Second, don't not tell me anything and then tell me to go home and wait, FUCK YOU!
Okay, so I go upstairs to the maternity clinic and ask the doctor there if she could get my records and results so I could know what was going on. She had us wait in the waiting room for what seemed like forever! After she got my results, she asked us to come into the room. We sat down and she started off with.. "are you sure you have your dates correct? " I said of course. She went on to say that I have the gestational sac and it measured at 6 weeks and 3 days, but there's no fetal pole and no heart beat. I automatically tuned everything else she was saying out, tears came streaming down my face and I was completely heartbroken. She then said that I could have gotten my dates wrong and that I could just be at 6 weeks now. According to some people, 6 weeks is still too early to see anything. Then she went on to say that she's leaning more toward a "bad pregnancy" or a missed miscarriage. Again, broke my heart. She said that if it was indeed a miscarriage, that it'll carry itself out within two weeks, but to be sure, she sent me to get blood work done to see if my HCG levels were rising like they were supposed to instead of dropping. I go back this Friday for more blood work. She said that they would call me on Friday afternoon at the earliest if they knew anything. If not we will have to wait till Monday, our next scheduled prenatal appointment. I have never hoped and wished so hard in my life that everything would be okay. I'm absolutely terrified and I really don't know what to do.
Colton seems to think that everything is going to be okay, and the baby is just being an asshole. I really hope he's right.
THAT was the first part of my bad week! Here's the second part!
I recently had gotten hired at a salon! YAY! I was so happy, although they were going to teach me from ground up. Unfortunately, she called today and said that I wasn't a match for the salon. Meaning "because you aren't making money and you're costing us money, then we have to let you go" I was incredibly devastated, after going what I went through and am still going through with this pregnancy.
I figured though, now would be the perfect time to start up my cupcake business with my friend Michelle! It's going to be great, I love baking, I love hanging out with her, I love making other people fat! (Ha! Suckers!)
So, not only do I not have a job, I may not have a baby either. To be quite honest, I'm not sure why bad things happen to me all the time, even my friends have been saying that I've been getting shit on and it's not fair!
I've been told everything happens for a reason, if anyone cares to shed light on how bad things happening to me has reasoning behind it, please do. It'd be muchly appreciated!
So, here it goes...
First, I am, and hopefully still will be pregnant. This is not an upsetting fact for me, as I've always wanted kids. My fiancee and I found out we were pregnant around August 5. Again, it was exciting news. By my last rag cycle ( I know, TMI! sorry) which was on July 2nd, I should have been about 11 weeks this week. Being that was when I actually got pregnant. Now, I've had my first prenatal check up and everything seemed to be fine. I had my first ultrasound yesterday, which was supposed to be a dating ultrasound. I drank so much water that it hurt to hold it in! I actually cried, it sucked. Anyways, after 20 minutes of the ultrasound tech pushing on my super full bladder he quietly left the room without saying a word to me. I was worried something was wrong right then and there. He came back in and asked me to empty my bladder so they could do a trans vaginal ultrasound. They looked and looked and still said nothing to me. When I asked them if they saw anything, the only thing they said was " we just take the pictures". That made me mad. I asked when I could talk to someone and they told me I had to call later that day to see what the results were. Okay, first of all, if you're an ultrasound tech, and you've done millions of pregnant ladies you WILL know when something doesn't seem right. Second, don't not tell me anything and then tell me to go home and wait, FUCK YOU!
Okay, so I go upstairs to the maternity clinic and ask the doctor there if she could get my records and results so I could know what was going on. She had us wait in the waiting room for what seemed like forever! After she got my results, she asked us to come into the room. We sat down and she started off with.. "are you sure you have your dates correct? " I said of course. She went on to say that I have the gestational sac and it measured at 6 weeks and 3 days, but there's no fetal pole and no heart beat. I automatically tuned everything else she was saying out, tears came streaming down my face and I was completely heartbroken. She then said that I could have gotten my dates wrong and that I could just be at 6 weeks now. According to some people, 6 weeks is still too early to see anything. Then she went on to say that she's leaning more toward a "bad pregnancy" or a missed miscarriage. Again, broke my heart. She said that if it was indeed a miscarriage, that it'll carry itself out within two weeks, but to be sure, she sent me to get blood work done to see if my HCG levels were rising like they were supposed to instead of dropping. I go back this Friday for more blood work. She said that they would call me on Friday afternoon at the earliest if they knew anything. If not we will have to wait till Monday, our next scheduled prenatal appointment. I have never hoped and wished so hard in my life that everything would be okay. I'm absolutely terrified and I really don't know what to do.
Colton seems to think that everything is going to be okay, and the baby is just being an asshole. I really hope he's right.
THAT was the first part of my bad week! Here's the second part!
I recently had gotten hired at a salon! YAY! I was so happy, although they were going to teach me from ground up. Unfortunately, she called today and said that I wasn't a match for the salon. Meaning "because you aren't making money and you're costing us money, then we have to let you go" I was incredibly devastated, after going what I went through and am still going through with this pregnancy.
I figured though, now would be the perfect time to start up my cupcake business with my friend Michelle! It's going to be great, I love baking, I love hanging out with her, I love making other people fat! (Ha! Suckers!)
So, not only do I not have a job, I may not have a baby either. To be quite honest, I'm not sure why bad things happen to me all the time, even my friends have been saying that I've been getting shit on and it's not fair!
I've been told everything happens for a reason, if anyone cares to shed light on how bad things happening to me has reasoning behind it, please do. It'd be muchly appreciated!
Friday, July 6, 2012
Monday, March 19, 2012
Another day another rant.
It really pisses me off when girls pretend to be friends with someone on second, and then then talk shit about them the next. It drives me absolutely bonkers. I'll admit to doing it, just like everyone else, but we're all adults, there's no reason why we should have to pretend to like someone and then talk shit about them the next. If you don't like them, don't talk to them. If you do like them, don't talk shit behind their back. It's really simple. REALLY REALLY simple! I'd like to see what people say about me, or have said about me that were my friends at the time. I'm going to assume none of it is nice, seeing as girls are bitches and like to bitch about everything. That's the main reason why I hate being friends with girls. They're vindictive bitches.. I love being friends with guys, what you see is what you get! Plus you never hear "Ew, mud?! I'm not getting out of the truck, that's disgusting!!" I fucking LOVE getting dirty! :D Mud is awesome, 4x4ing is awesome. Hiking in the pouring rain is awesome...GUYS ARE AWESOME in general anyways lol.
On another note, I sometimes wish more people I knew read my blog. Or, more people in general. I'm not sure if most of my posts even get read. Oh well I suppose, I like to write and rant and just get stuff off my chest. This is just the place I get to write it to! I like to write things down so I remember them too! I haven't really been updating my blog much, I've been too busy trying to train Tundra and working. Watching little girls really wears you out. I didn't think that it would take a toll, cause I love watching kids and playing with them. It really does take a toll on you, it's insane how much you learn working with kids!
I've got to admit, I miss relaxing with Colton! I just want to sit with him and watch movies all night and talk! I can't wait for the summer! I can't wait for Colton to be home! Only 2 weeks!! :D well, 9 days till he's home for good and I can sleep next to him at night, and wake up to him in the morning!!
I really don't have much else to write, so I'll leave it at that and clearly, I'll write when I've got something to write about!! :)
On another note, I sometimes wish more people I knew read my blog. Or, more people in general. I'm not sure if most of my posts even get read. Oh well I suppose, I like to write and rant and just get stuff off my chest. This is just the place I get to write it to! I like to write things down so I remember them too! I haven't really been updating my blog much, I've been too busy trying to train Tundra and working. Watching little girls really wears you out. I didn't think that it would take a toll, cause I love watching kids and playing with them. It really does take a toll on you, it's insane how much you learn working with kids!
I've got to admit, I miss relaxing with Colton! I just want to sit with him and watch movies all night and talk! I can't wait for the summer! I can't wait for Colton to be home! Only 2 weeks!! :D well, 9 days till he's home for good and I can sleep next to him at night, and wake up to him in the morning!!
I really don't have much else to write, so I'll leave it at that and clearly, I'll write when I've got something to write about!! :)
Thursday, March 8, 2012
Sunday, March 4, 2012
Oh.
I hate being away from Colton! He's away for school and I only get to see him on weekends. It's really hard for me because he's like my best friend and soul mate all in one. It's hard not having someone to talk to till you fall asleep, or wake up and see them smiling at you, or coming home from work and not seeing someone sitting on the couch waiting for dinner.
I try so hard every time he leaves not to cry, and it seems like it gets harder and harder to do so. I thought always having someone here with me, or having a puppy would distract me from missing him, but it seems like it makes it more difficult. I find myself doing things that I wish he was here doing them with me. Like, training our puppy for example. It's hard to do it alone, and when he was home this weekend, it made it a little easier.
It does make it great when I see him again, because I've gone all week without seeing him and then all of a sudden he's home and it's exciting! He'll be home in 5 sleeps though. So, until then, I'll train our puppy and work, and hope the week goes by super fast.
Here, is a picture of our puppy
I try so hard every time he leaves not to cry, and it seems like it gets harder and harder to do so. I thought always having someone here with me, or having a puppy would distract me from missing him, but it seems like it makes it more difficult. I find myself doing things that I wish he was here doing them with me. Like, training our puppy for example. It's hard to do it alone, and when he was home this weekend, it made it a little easier.
It does make it great when I see him again, because I've gone all week without seeing him and then all of a sudden he's home and it's exciting! He'll be home in 5 sleeps though. So, until then, I'll train our puppy and work, and hope the week goes by super fast.
Here, is a picture of our puppy
Saturday, February 25, 2012
This. Is Doug.
Sky says:
He wants tacos for dinner anyways so I'm making him tacos
doug says:
be hella bitchy
and be all like
YO
TAKE ME OUT FOR SOME
what do girls drink?
those drinks with slush?
well heck, i will call it a booze slushy
Sky says:
haha okay
doug says:
YO COLT, TAKE ME FOR FUCKING BOOZE SLUSHIES AND TATER SKINS. and be all nice and ready to go. and have osmething waiting for him, like. i dont know. i would be happy with a mtn dew or coffee crisp. that way he looks retarded if he doesnt get you those tater skins..
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