Sky says:
What do you think of me?
Colton says:
as my love forever
Sky says:
As your love forever?
Colton says:
my one and only girl
Sky says:
You're my one and only.
Colton says:
forever and ever
Sky says:
forever and ever, babe
Monday, February 20, 2012
Thursday, January 19, 2012
MOVING AGAAIN
Moving again!! Outta my moms house finally!! I'm pretty excited!
We can have Coltons kitty Turtle live with us!! I don't have to deal with my mom screaming at me! Ah, I'm moving this Sunday and Monday! I don't have pictures of the place, but the front of the Condo buildings look like this.
We can have Coltons kitty Turtle live with us!! I don't have to deal with my mom screaming at me! Ah, I'm moving this Sunday and Monday! I don't have pictures of the place, but the front of the Condo buildings look like this.
So yes, I'm moving :D I'm really excited.
I'll post more pictures of the place when I get settled in!!
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
Friday, December 30, 2011
Fuck life.
Seriously contemplating doing something stupid.
Why?
For some kind of fucking attention from my mom.
Sitting here every fucking day absolutely neglected by her and my dad. I don't matter anymore apparently. I ask for something and it's made into a big deal that I want it. My little sister wants something she gets it without a fucking peep. Same goes for my brothers. I don't understand how that's fair. I ask for body wash, or deodorant, and I get flipped on. I ask for something to eat, and I get flipped on. I get called fat, stupid, ugly, worthless.. You name it, and I get called in on a daily basis. It's seriously getting to the point where, I don't even know how to function in society anymore with out me having extreme anxiety.
I'm done. I can't take it anymore. It's seriously driving me insane. I can't even pretend to be happy, my boyfriend hates the fact that I'm always sad. I don't know how to change it. My attempts at finding work anywhere are failing, like I fail at everything else. I have no where to go. I'm torn on what to do. I just, I'm so god damn broken it's not even funny. I sit here all day and think about how nice it would be if I weren't around. I honestly don't think anyone in my family would give two fucks if I were gone.
I'll be gone for a few hours with my boyfriend, and then come back and I have a nasty Facebook message saying "You're a fucking useless piece of shit, I don't understand why you don't pack your shit and leave." Sister goes out for the night, drinks till she's fucking puking everywhere, then drinks some more. Comes home, makes so much fucking noise, eats everything in the house and then passes out on the couch. NOT HER BED, the COUCH. She still doesn't get yelled at. I'm literally at my wits end now.
Help?
Why?
For some kind of fucking attention from my mom.
Sitting here every fucking day absolutely neglected by her and my dad. I don't matter anymore apparently. I ask for something and it's made into a big deal that I want it. My little sister wants something she gets it without a fucking peep. Same goes for my brothers. I don't understand how that's fair. I ask for body wash, or deodorant, and I get flipped on. I ask for something to eat, and I get flipped on. I get called fat, stupid, ugly, worthless.. You name it, and I get called in on a daily basis. It's seriously getting to the point where, I don't even know how to function in society anymore with out me having extreme anxiety.
I'm done. I can't take it anymore. It's seriously driving me insane. I can't even pretend to be happy, my boyfriend hates the fact that I'm always sad. I don't know how to change it. My attempts at finding work anywhere are failing, like I fail at everything else. I have no where to go. I'm torn on what to do. I just, I'm so god damn broken it's not even funny. I sit here all day and think about how nice it would be if I weren't around. I honestly don't think anyone in my family would give two fucks if I were gone.
I'll be gone for a few hours with my boyfriend, and then come back and I have a nasty Facebook message saying "You're a fucking useless piece of shit, I don't understand why you don't pack your shit and leave." Sister goes out for the night, drinks till she's fucking puking everywhere, then drinks some more. Comes home, makes so much fucking noise, eats everything in the house and then passes out on the couch. NOT HER BED, the COUCH. She still doesn't get yelled at. I'm literally at my wits end now.
Help?
Thursday, December 22, 2011
My man
This is my Colton!! Oh, pleaaase excuse the terribad picture of myself. Yuck!!! He's super cute in it though! haha
Ugh
Been having horrible sleeps lately, it really sucks.
I woke up, walked Colton down stairs and said good bye to him like I usually do. Came back upstairs and napped until about 9:15. So about an hour nap. Woke up, and made some breakfast, 2 scrambled eggs and 2 pieces of bacon. I wanted so much more bacon, but am trying to watch what I eat. Anyways, finished eating, and started to look for jobs online. Now, I'm feeling super nauseous, I've got a headache and I feel like I'm going to die. Not sure what happened between then and now. Just the smell of my dad making lunch makes me feel like I'm going to vomit.
So, now I'm here sitting in my bed, on my laptop writing a blog post hoping that I stop feeling like this.
BLEGH
I woke up, walked Colton down stairs and said good bye to him like I usually do. Came back upstairs and napped until about 9:15. So about an hour nap. Woke up, and made some breakfast, 2 scrambled eggs and 2 pieces of bacon. I wanted so much more bacon, but am trying to watch what I eat. Anyways, finished eating, and started to look for jobs online. Now, I'm feeling super nauseous, I've got a headache and I feel like I'm going to die. Not sure what happened between then and now. Just the smell of my dad making lunch makes me feel like I'm going to vomit.
So, now I'm here sitting in my bed, on my laptop writing a blog post hoping that I stop feeling like this.
BLEGH
Thursday, December 15, 2011
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