Monday, October 4, 2010

Ever love somebody so much you can barely breath when your with them?

I guess it didn't hit me until now that my boyfriend wont be anywhere near me anymore. I honestly have no idea what I'm going to do without him, He's actually my whole world. The fact that I wont be able to see him when I want, or call him to come over cause I need a hug.. is.. pretty depressing. I'm told it gets easier with time, but I'm pretty sure that by the time it gets easier, I'll probably be dead. That's how long it'll take for it to be okay.

I'm not sure people realize how much he means to me.. It's not something you just get over.. He wont be here for a lot of special things.. Like my birthday.. even though it isn't even that special. Or our 3 year anniversary in November. He said we'd celebrate early, but it isn't the same. I'm not sure how this is going to work out, but I really hope it's okay. I don't think I can handle being without him for too long.

There is nothing in this world that I love more than him, I can honestly sit here.. and think of nothing that I love more than that kid. I should probably go to bed, I have school tomorrow, and I'm not staying with him anymore =( It's going to be a long walk.

If anyone has any tips.. feel free to leave em!

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn, well that's alright because I like the way it hurts...

8 comments:

Anonymous said...

oh my gosh!!!!!
your boyfriend is moving to another town?!?!?!?!?!!?
how is your relationship going to work?!?!?!
are you doing long distance?

Skylar said...

Yeah,
We're going to do long distance.. I can't bring myself to leave him.. I love him too much. I know it'll be hard, but when you love someone as much as I love him.. then it's worth it :)
Well, I think so anyways

Anonymous said...

where is he moving to?!?1
how far is it from you?!!?

Skylar said...

he's only moving an hour away. It's not that far but when neither can drive without a parental unit, it makes it harder. I really want to make things work. I love him.

Anonymous said...

There's always the bus!
Are you currently working, or just going to schooll?

Skylar said...

I'm just going to school right now.
I am considering the bus once I get money! Then it shouldn't be that bad. He gets his N in Janurary and I'll get mine in May

Anonymous said...

Having an N is no good if you dont have a job though!
cause how will u afford to buy a car.. pay for insurance.. gas.. etc

Skylar said...

Well, by the time I get my N I'll have a job at a salon, or just starting off anyways. We've agreed that taking the bus is the best thing to do if we ever want to see each other. This weekend I'm going to see him actually! I'll be there Friday to Sunday. I'm pretty excited. I miss him alot.