So, I have a few things to blog about. First on the agenda.. Some random fuck decided to text me yesterday and ask if I cheated on Ryan with one of his friends. The answer to that.. is no! I didn't cheat on him. I also got the good ol' you're a home wrecker speech as well as "Why aren't you dating if you fucked him". SO! I'll put a stop to this now. I'm pretty sure that the guy that I've fallen in love with doesn't read this blog. So here we goo.
-We didn't have sex
-We enjoyed a few movies instead.
- Is it any of your business? No.
- Should I be blogging about it? Probably not.
That's what blogs are for though. You have no idea who I did or IF I did the deed with anyone. That's the beauty of the Internet. You don't know if I'm lying, or if what I'm typing is 100 % truth.
For those who've been on my ass... Here is something you all should probably read and get through your pea brains;
I stopped dating Ryan, because I out grew his love, per say. I love him with all my heart, he's been one of my best friends for 3 years. There is no way I can stop loving him. I needed more from our relationship though, It wasn't stimulating enough for me. We didn't have fun anymore.. Or I felt we didn't. We treated each other with equal amounts of disrespect, and said hurtful things to each other. It's not how a relationship should be.
Then I fell in love with an illusion. He made me feel like I was special, Like I was worth more than I was getting.. and just.. kinda dissipated into the air. Sitting here playing back what happened in my head.. its all foolish and I wish that things could change. They can, but they probably wont. As much as I wish they would change for the better and I could talk to this mystery man that I fell in love with, I have to deal with the fact that he doesn't want what he had. To be honest with you, I have no idea where things fell through or what the hell happened. Maybe I'm not supposed to know, maybe I am and it's just not the right time. All I know is that I love my illusion and nothing can change that right now.
So, to whom is texting me. Please stop. You have your answers and I posted them for the world to see okay? Just... Stop.